What do you do when your mind is in a total chaos?

What do you do when your mind is in a total chaos? When your brain keep sending a wrong message to your body leaving you helplessly? Okay, I was exaggerating. All I want to say is that these past few weeks had been insane. Ya, many things were going on at the same time and they all asked for a perfection. However; thanks heaven, they went pretty well even though they left me exhausted in a good way.

Sometimes when there are too many things going on, the only thing I want to do is just taking a silence moment for a while. Sound cheesy, maybe, but this moment has been helping me a lot. Usually, I just stop doing anything but sitting on my bed leaning on my puffy big pillow. I would do some exhales and inhales with a hope of finding peace and trying to arrange things in my brain so they go back in order and are easy to be processed. However, I start to be bored of this method. Ya, I'm easy to be bored. That''s why sometimes I think office job would kill me because it will have a same routine day by day. 

So, I am thinking of some other methods to calm my mind. Methods which are out of my routine. There are some that have been going back and forth in my mind actually. First, I really want to just sit in one of campus bus' back seats observing people one by one and listening to the chatters. Or I just can look out the window observing trees and buildings while listening to one of Sara Bareilles' or Coldplay's albums. Second, buy myself a cup of a good coffee and spend some hours in a cafe, observing people or talking to a total stranger and make a good story out of it. Third, go to a beach and listen to the winds. I miss beaches. Dang. There's no beach around here. Beach is really a nice place to escape. Finally, just wandering around and see what I will end up to. Haha. They sure would be a great moment of refreshing before going back to the real life. If you find this post rather chaotic and disorganized, sorry I think I need one of my silence moments.

Malioboro, Jogja 2012. They can tell you a wonderful story about life.

 Jogja 2012. Wonderful sky that accompanied your wandering.

Dreamers vs. Realists

"There are dreamers and there are realists in this world, you think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists, but more often than not the opposite is true. See the dreamers need the realists to keep the dreamers from soaring too close to the sun. And the realists? Well without the dreamers, they might not ever get off the ground." - Cam, Modern Family S03E09

Where the colors go?

Event Seru di Makassar

Akhir-akhir ini saya sangat senang mendengar berita dari tanah Sulawesi, khususnya Makassar. Mulai banyak event dan kegiatan seru yang diadakan sejak tahun lalu. Sangat jauh beda dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya yang hanya diisi dengan event yang cenderung monoton. Tahun lalu, misalnya, Rumata' (Rumah Budaya di Makassar) untuk pertama kalinya mengadakan Makassar International Writers Festival yang mengundang penulis lokal, nasional, maupun internasional. Menurut saya, event ini sangat berguna untuk membuka wawasan anak-anak Makassar, dan patut diadakan tiap tahun. Siapa tau bisa jadi event segede Ubud Writers and Readers Festival yang tiap tahun dinantikan oleh banyak orang. Untuk bulan Januari, saya sempat browsing dan mendapati dua event menarik ini.

• Pementasan teater Waiting for Godot oleh Kala Teater. Mungkin banyak yang ga tau teater macam apa ini. Tapi buat saya judul teater ini sangat familiar. Sejak saya duduk di semester satu, penjelasan tentang teater ini sudah keluar masuk kuping saya. Ini judul teater pertama yang dijelaskan oleh dosen drama saya, bapak I. Yudhi Soenarto. Beliau lulusan State University of New York, sudah pernah manggung di Broadway, dan pernah memerankan tokoh Estragon, salah satu tokoh utama, dalam Waiting for Godot. Inilah kenapa saya ingin sekali nonton teater ini: penasaran. Saya sudah excited parah, tapi pas liat tanggalnya, ternyata hanya ditampilkan 7-11 Januari yang berarti saya masih ada di Depok -__-
• German Film Festival. Whow, jarang ada festival macam ini di Makassar. Festival ini juga diadakan di empat kota lainnya; Yogyakarta, Jakarta, Surabaya, dan Medan dari tanggal 14-25 Januari. Makassar kebagian tanggal 24-25, artinya saya (insya Allah) sudah ada di Makassar, jadi bisa nonton, yeay! Akan ada 10 film blockbuster yang akan diputar. Sangat lumayan mengisi liburan. Can't wait.

Awal tahun sudah cukup seru, semoga sepanjang tahun akan ada banyak event-event seru lainnya. 

"I'd rather go out there taking a risk than sit on my comfortable couch doing nothing." 

I UPS! La Galigo

UPS - Uncover, Preserve, Speak. Let's join the campaign to preserve our local cultures!

visit Lontara Project for more info :)

It's New Year

It's new year and fireworks are everywhere. Red, blue, green, and yellow explode together coloring the sky trying to enliven the night. The sound gives a little spark in heart. The kids cheering in joy and playing their little fireworks on the street, cherishing the momentum. Not sure what they have in mind about new year, but just love to see them laughing happily.

It's new year and friends wish me a happy new year. I wish them the same thing just for a formality. A new year means a new hope, that's what they always say. But then I think, and it always happens, that the euphoria of having the new hope will only last in a month. Entering February, things stay the same.

It's new year and I'm thinking of one book review, two papers, and three essays. Guess they got along well last year that they now show up together. My advice, you guys are not perfect for each other just break up. My brain would be happy to know that.

It's new year and I'm missing my parents. Hectic days and rains are the ones that should be blamed for this gloomy feeling. They just know how to shred my mood.  Ma and Pa probably now are busy preparing things for barbecuing with neighbors. Ma would cook the coconut rice, and Pa would help grilling fish and chicken.

It's new year and I am looking back. Last year certainly was not my year even though I had some happy precious moments. I did more drops than draws. I forgot where I wrote my resolutions and was not able to put a tick in front of every goal that I wished to accomplish. This year I don't think I'll make one.

It's new year and I feel empty.

A Moment on Sunday